In the Heart of a Mother

Kids nowadays!  

My daughter Alyanna, one day, asked permission to go out on Saturday 'cause they are going to rehearse a dance for the upcoming program.  I asked her who among their teachers will be with them during the practice and she couldn't give me an answer.  So, I texted the adviser and asked.  According to her, she didn't tell her Grade 5 pupils to come to school and practice on a Saturday.  

I am glad that my daughter is very active in school, whether with the academic or extra curricular activities.  But what I want her to understand is that she cannot make any decisions for herself at this time.  She is still very young to decide for something that might not keep her safe.  (She's just 10 years old.) 

The other week, she was practicing her lines.  Actually, I had no idea what she was doing until she showed her paper to me.  She had a two-liner which according to her will be her short introduction of herself.  When I asked her what it was for, she simply said that she'll be one of the two representatives of their school for the election of District SPG (Supreme Pupils Government) officers.  I was delighted by the news.  OH!  I said, with this kind of activities she's doing, I will be very supportive.

In the heart of a mother, there are so many things going on,so many thoughts agonizing her, and so many wishes she wants for her children.  At the end of it all, what a mother wants is for her children to understand that everything she does and tells are for their own good.

I hope Alyanna continues doing things that she likes and I promise to support her in every step of the way. 

Almost a Teener in the House

Time runs so fast.  It passes unnoticed.  I could clearly remember my darling Tamarra when she was still a baby. There were so many sleepless nights for me back then.  Why? oh! She seemed to always have a concert every night.  My husband and I would alternately attend to her during the night.  She would cry so loud without us understanding what really was happening to her, or if there was something she wanted.  We only had better sleep then when she turned two years old.  LOL!  Those were really difficult days for us.  Going to work with very short rest during the night!

While growing up, she seemed to have compensated all our sacrifices for her.  She made us real proud with all her achievements the moment she entered school.  She started joining contests, and quiz bees.  She would always bring an award.  It really felt wonderful being this girl's mother.  

Now, she's in Grade 7 and is continuously doing all she could to reach for her dreams.  She just turned 12 last 21st day of this month.  That is why I would always remind her to take her time and don't pressure herself too much.  She is still very young and I want her to enjoy her youth.  If she achieves anything this school year, I would of course be very proud of her.  But more than that, I want her to take it slow and to avoid stress.  I don't want her to miss anything about being a child.  She is not yet a teen, but she's already in junior high.  And I think that brings the pressure and the confusion (at times), too.  

Whatever it takes, I am going to be behind my daughter all the time.  I love you, Ate.

My Other Half

I have written a few articles already, and while reading them again, I noticed, I never really mentioned much about The Other Side of me. I am a mother of three beautiful kids, yes! But I am, of course, a wife to my other half, Daddy Alvin.

Ah! I am a wife to him...but come to think of it, I am actually questioning myself, how good a wife I am to him?  

Meet my husband.  

I am writing this to tell the whole world how lucky a wife I am because of him.  He is the most understanding, most patient, most loving guy ever.  (Not to mention, the most handsome, of course).  

The last few months were busy months for me.  I would always complain about the workload I have now as a teacher, then would go home to attend to the primary needs of the family, but would spend most of my time still doing school works.  On the side, I would also work on assignments and projects which I need to submit for my post graduate class.  For some reasons, (maybe because of stress) I only see the hardships I am going through.  I never really notice the sacrifices my loving husband is doing for the family.

Now realizing that, I would like the world to know, that this man is the sole person who understands me even if he does not say anything.  With the hug and kiss I get before he leaves or when he arrives, with the constant whispers of "i love you" before we sleep at night, with the smile he gives even how much I frown at him, ah! those are proofs of what I just said.

I am now thinking of how I can reciprocate all the love I get from this man.  The way I see it now, I am not giving my best.  Maybe, I should start by stopping this write up now and start cooking one of his favorite dish, pork adobo. 

:)

my pride

it's been quite a while since i have written one for my site.  i missed doing this, really.

it's summertime here in our country.  just recently, school year ended.  and this year had been very challenging and stressful for me if i may refer to my job as a teacher.  but as a mom, wow! this year gave me the best feeling ever.

my tamarra, eldest daughter, was awarded as the valedictorian in the graduating class.  she received a total of seven medals (6 gold medals and 1 silver).  she really made me and our daddy very proud of her achievements.  

my other daughter, alyanna, was again the top 3 in the grade 4 class.  and she was greatly challenged by what her ate tamarra achieved.  but i already talked to her that she need not be pressured.  that all she had to do is study and be glad of whatever she gets in the end.

my youngest, the only boy, kohbe, didn't had his chance to get a medal this year.  but it was already a big achievement for him that he landed as the 7th in class.  (last year, when he was in grade 2, he didn't even reach the top 10).  

i am just sharing this to everyone 'cause i am truly proud.  but just to make it clear, with medals or none, i am already proud to be the mother of these three wonderful children.  really very sweet, loving, and well-mannered kids.  i love them so. 

right decision

 

isn't he cute?  my darling kohbe when he was 4 years old... i'm browsing on some old photos. i just miss my baby.

right now, he's 6 and in grade 1.  i transferred him to a school near my in-laws.  which make us see him on a weekly basis. Reason, he wasn't happy in his school before.  i had to do something about it.  it's his first year in school.  and every child must have the feeling of security in school for he is gonna stay there longer than the hours he would spent at home.  the first year in school is always crucial for a child.  it's going to either make or break him.  so, that's the best solution i thought of.  

last Friday, i let my mom fetch him.  i just met them at SM Dasmarinas.  Upon seeing him, what i wanted to do was hug and kiss him.  I thought he was gonna say he missed me, too.  But the first thing he told me was, "Mommy, ang saya ko don.  Ang ganda ng school ko" ( i am happy there, my school is beautiful).  Then, he started talking about his new friends and what they did in school.  

while listening to him, i was telling myself that i made the right decision.  our little sacrifice of not seeing him everyday will mean that he is gonna have a different perception about school.  He will now start feeling safe in school with all his teachers and classmates.  He will now begin enjoying the activities which he didn't really like joining before.  with all these in mind, i started feeling better.  anyway, i can always visit him if i want to.

  

make your mama proud

last week, i was so busy calling parents, talking to them either over the phone or personally in the faculty room.  i was just concerned about their children, most of them seldom comes to class anymore.  a mother told me, they were broke and couldn't even give their child enough amount to pay jeepney fare.  someone couldn't afford to buy some materials for projects, and another wouldn't want to come to school because he had no baon/allowance for a decent snack.  in cases like this, i would always ask parents to decide:are they still going to send the kids to school or would they want them to stay home, be dropped?  most of the parents would say they want the children to continue.  and my final say is, "then, let's not let theses kids think that our problem is their problem.  we are the parents.  it's our duty to provide their needs.  our children's problem is how to pass their subjects."

i am a parent.  that's why i talk to them as such.  it's the principle that i follow.  but even though i always put that in mind, and try my best to follow so, children making adults problem their problem is inevitable.  my darling tamarra, without me thinking, was already doing the same.  

the other night, she texted me.  she was chosen to be one of the three grade 4 students to attend the MTAP talented division which will be held in the district school every Saturday.  i was happy for her.  but the next message i received goes like this : mommy, pano yan? hindi pa nga ko bayad sa MTAP  sa school, tapos magbabayad na ulit. oh, my! she's thinking about how am i gonna pay for those activities...and i replied, ako ang bahala (i'll take care of it).

the following day, around 9 am, she was already in school, she texted me again.  she said she was undecided about joining the PLTC.  i told her to join.  her next message was, if she's gonna join, the total amount of her dues in school would be PhP590.  and she was so concerned about our finances. i was so touched by her gestures, her attitude.  i've always known my daughter to be so sweet.  but i still can't help but shed a tear and be so proud of her to share these things to you.   my message to her, never worry, for i will take care of everything.  i told her to enjoy and be part of whatever activities she wants and activities which she is chosen to participate into. 

i can never be prouder! 

We are Scouts

Oh my!  a busy day indeed!

i was so excited, i woke earlier than the alarm clock.  been busy since 3:30 this morning.  cooked breakfast, prepared lunchboxes, iron the clothes, woke the kids at 4:30, had them prepared before 6 am.  my, my, to braid the hair ate up all our time.  but it's alright! i was pleased with the reactions from my daughters.  they so loved how they looked when i was done with them.  as if they were going to a pageant or something alike. when the truth is, they were just attending the investiture. 

the sad thing is i won't be able to witness all their activities today (alyanna's going to sing, tamarra's the patrol leader, they are going to dance, too).  but you know, call of duty.  just like scouts, disregard oneself and make sure you are able to perform your duty for the love of your countrymen...hihihi.  so i'll count this to those times that i cannot be with my children because i have to be with my students (who i hope would see the worth of their teachers).

but i promised them that daddy's coming so they should still be glad.  he's gonna take their pictures and videos as well.  then, tamarra said it's alright.  she shared that her friend Kyla would be braiding her own hair, put on some make up by herself, because her mom only comes every weekends.  she lives with her dad, but couldn't fix her hair of course.  i was touched because at least, my daughter appreciates that i could attend to them and their needs before i go to work.

i really hope they will have a good time today.  and that may God bless me with a longer life so i can always be there for my kids on times that they could really use my guidance.