right decision

 

isn't he cute?  my darling kohbe when he was 4 years old... i'm browsing on some old photos. i just miss my baby.

right now, he's 6 and in grade 1.  i transferred him to a school near my in-laws.  which make us see him on a weekly basis. Reason, he wasn't happy in his school before.  i had to do something about it.  it's his first year in school.  and every child must have the feeling of security in school for he is gonna stay there longer than the hours he would spent at home.  the first year in school is always crucial for a child.  it's going to either make or break him.  so, that's the best solution i thought of.  

last Friday, i let my mom fetch him.  i just met them at SM Dasmarinas.  Upon seeing him, what i wanted to do was hug and kiss him.  I thought he was gonna say he missed me, too.  But the first thing he told me was, "Mommy, ang saya ko don.  Ang ganda ng school ko" ( i am happy there, my school is beautiful).  Then, he started talking about his new friends and what they did in school.  

while listening to him, i was telling myself that i made the right decision.  our little sacrifice of not seeing him everyday will mean that he is gonna have a different perception about school.  He will now start feeling safe in school with all his teachers and classmates.  He will now begin enjoying the activities which he didn't really like joining before.  with all these in mind, i started feeling better.  anyway, i can always visit him if i want to.

  

make your mama proud

last week, i was so busy calling parents, talking to them either over the phone or personally in the faculty room.  i was just concerned about their children, most of them seldom comes to class anymore.  a mother told me, they were broke and couldn't even give their child enough amount to pay jeepney fare.  someone couldn't afford to buy some materials for projects, and another wouldn't want to come to school because he had no baon/allowance for a decent snack.  in cases like this, i would always ask parents to decide:are they still going to send the kids to school or would they want them to stay home, be dropped?  most of the parents would say they want the children to continue.  and my final say is, "then, let's not let theses kids think that our problem is their problem.  we are the parents.  it's our duty to provide their needs.  our children's problem is how to pass their subjects."

i am a parent.  that's why i talk to them as such.  it's the principle that i follow.  but even though i always put that in mind, and try my best to follow so, children making adults problem their problem is inevitable.  my darling tamarra, without me thinking, was already doing the same.  

the other night, she texted me.  she was chosen to be one of the three grade 4 students to attend the MTAP talented division which will be held in the district school every Saturday.  i was happy for her.  but the next message i received goes like this : mommy, pano yan? hindi pa nga ko bayad sa MTAP  sa school, tapos magbabayad na ulit. oh, my! she's thinking about how am i gonna pay for those activities...and i replied, ako ang bahala (i'll take care of it).

the following day, around 9 am, she was already in school, she texted me again.  she said she was undecided about joining the PLTC.  i told her to join.  her next message was, if she's gonna join, the total amount of her dues in school would be PhP590.  and she was so concerned about our finances. i was so touched by her gestures, her attitude.  i've always known my daughter to be so sweet.  but i still can't help but shed a tear and be so proud of her to share these things to you.   my message to her, never worry, for i will take care of everything.  i told her to enjoy and be part of whatever activities she wants and activities which she is chosen to participate into. 

i can never be prouder! 

We are Scouts

Oh my!  a busy day indeed!

i was so excited, i woke earlier than the alarm clock.  been busy since 3:30 this morning.  cooked breakfast, prepared lunchboxes, iron the clothes, woke the kids at 4:30, had them prepared before 6 am.  my, my, to braid the hair ate up all our time.  but it's alright! i was pleased with the reactions from my daughters.  they so loved how they looked when i was done with them.  as if they were going to a pageant or something alike. when the truth is, they were just attending the investiture. 

the sad thing is i won't be able to witness all their activities today (alyanna's going to sing, tamarra's the patrol leader, they are going to dance, too).  but you know, call of duty.  just like scouts, disregard oneself and make sure you are able to perform your duty for the love of your countrymen...hihihi.  so i'll count this to those times that i cannot be with my children because i have to be with my students (who i hope would see the worth of their teachers).

but i promised them that daddy's coming so they should still be glad.  he's gonna take their pictures and videos as well.  then, tamarra said it's alright.  she shared that her friend Kyla would be braiding her own hair, put on some make up by herself, because her mom only comes every weekends.  she lives with her dad, but couldn't fix her hair of course.  i was touched because at least, my daughter appreciates that i could attend to them and their needs before i go to work.

i really hope they will have a good time today.  and that may God bless me with a longer life so i can always be there for my kids on times that they could really use my guidance. 

busy as a bee

it's been a while.. i lost the urge to write for everyday was just so hectic for me. i barely have time for myself

just wanna share what kept me for the past few weeks i didn't visit my site...

ate tam became busy reviewing for the district Science quiz bee.  a day before the contest date, she fell ill.  but i was not able to convince her not to join the competition.  she really wanted to come so as not to disappoint her teacher.  unfortunately, she lost.  the following day, i had her checked by her doctor.  we had her cbc and urinalysis.  she was diagnosed with urinary tract infection and was advised to rest for a few days.
as of today, she is back to school and is now taking special test (for last week was the schedule of the periodical exams).

3 days after i brought ate tam to the doctor, my husband and i were at their school.  our second child alyanna was a candidate for the Mr. & Ms. Sci-Math 2013.  it was a fund raiser and she only landed on the third spot.  but we were so proud of her when she started walking on the catwalk and most especially when she sang on stage. it was the first time she sang in school (solo).

hmmm...that's about it! oops! with kohbe,,,haha,,,what can i share? he's 6, he's in grade 1, but still our baby. i have a lot of thinking to do...how can i make him grow up?  but i love him so dearly and i plan to enjoy him being my baby...

well,,,i'm out now. in an hour, i'm no longer their mother, i'll then be the teacher to 300 children of other mothers out there!  God bless us folks!

Dancing Princesses

KPOP is really popular these days.  i get to hear a lot about it from my students.  i never really understood why they dressed up like the way they do, nor sang songs with lyrics they don't understand.  

last march, like we always do in school, we had this culminating activity.  i never thought i would enjoy the genre my students love.  i would normally sit on one corner and watch each group practiced for their performance day.  then, one day, i just realized, i was actually humming the tune of the songs they were singing, i was starting to feel the beat of each dance they were practicing.  before i knew it, i already asked one of them to send to me via bluetooth the video of the dance track. 

i had the video saved on my laptop.  i played it every morning with my daughters (one of our bonding activities is dancing).  they started to learn the steps by just watching the video.  next thing i knew, they were ready to dance it in front of our family.  to my delight, my daughter Tam, asked me to record their performance.  i was more than willing to do so (i'm always a proud mother).  

and now, i'm sharing this to all of you.  ENJOY!

I'M A MOM

Since June, i hardly have a good night sleep.  i always have about 4 to 5 hours to enjoy the comfort of our bed.  reason: i arrive home around 9 in the evening, have to check on the notebooks of my kids if they've done their home works, eat my dinner while browsing the net (checking emails, facebook messages and notifications, searching google for my lessons the following day), sleep at around 12 mn, wake at 4 am to cook food, set the table for breakfast, prepare three lunch bags (each has pack lunch, snacks, soup bowls, etc.), wake the kids at around 5 am (which i find really difficult especially with Kohbe), force them to eat breakfast, then assist them in bathing.  they are all set for school at around 6 am, their service arrives at around 6:10 am.  just then will i have time to face what i have to prepare for my class.  this has been my routine and even if i complain, there's no use.  

i really find this so tiring, but this is motherhood.  every mother's experience won't be complete without undergoing all these.  i would jokingly tell my colleagues, NANAY NA AKO NGAYON (I'M NOW A MOTHER).  some would ask, "why? haven't you realized that before?"
i only say so because i was not able to do all these before.  we had a house help ever since we had Tamarra.  i seldom washed dishes nor did i do the laundry.  i only cooked for my family if i felt like it.  now, whether i have to compute grades or just want to take a nap, i can't afford to do so. no one's gonna do these chores for me.  but guess what? i'm happy.  i was never this happy.  that's why i keep on telling everyone, nanay na ako ngayon.  it's a feeling you can never exchange for anything else.  yes! i get mad, i scold my kids for their wrong-doings, i get easily irritated, i don't want to hear them make noise at times, but at the end of the day, a kiss and a hug from them would melt my heart and make me forget what i just told them to do or not to do.

oh! how i love all my children!

while i am alone

hahaha,,,nice title.  I just couldn't think of a better one.  Sounds like while you were sleeping, a movie of Sandra Bullock back in the 90's.  Anyway, Sandra's not the topic I have in mind.  As the title suggests, I am alone at the moment.  Where is everybody?  Well, I haven't seen Alyanna for almost three weeks now, and Kohbe for more than a week already.  They are spending some time with my in-laws.  Tamarra, who was with them last week, is now with my mother, out there somewhere.  My sweet little ate Tamtam, who now prefers to be called Errah, cannot stand being away from me for a long time.   Dy, on the other hand, just left for work (night shift).  But even if he was here the whole day, he's as good as not around for he was asleep.

How do I spend a day without everybody?  If it's not summer, definitely, I won't really have time to think about them, because for sure, I'll be in school.  But since it's school break, I have to keep myself busy so as not to miss everyone of them.  I woke up around six, drank  a mug of coffee, did a 15-minute aerobics, then attended with the laundry.  (Oh!  We have more than a basket of soiled-clothes.)  Around 8, dy arrived.  We ate breakfast together, he went to bed and I went back to washing the clothes.

At noon, I couldn't find anything else to do.  I've finished a thousand pieces puzzle, a gift I received from a colleague, Mrs. Gloria Madlansacay. (which I promised to frame before summer ends).  I've read almost all the pocketbooks I have on the shelf but one.  A book entitled Tuesdays with Morrie, a gift from Jonathan Diesta, another colleague.  I thought it's a boring book, that's why I keep on ignoring it.  (My apologies, Jonathan.)  But since I have nothing left to do, I started browsing on it, scanning the reviews about it, and then reading it.  It's not boring after all.  In about a few minutes, I was hooked by it, especially when I read the part about Morrie's living funeral.  Oh! If not for my husband who was about to leave, I wouldn't have stopped reading it.  I promise to finish reading it until tomorrow.  And when I'm done, I'll share those greatest lessons in life the book promised to give.

Oh!  I can't wait to share it with you guys.

Just an Update

Wow!  It's been what, around 2 years since the last time I wrote for blogspot.  I don't know.  Maybe I just lost my drive, or I had been busy with other matters.  Now that it's summertime and I don't have work, I decided I should try writing again.

The last post I did was about Tam, my eldest, being always away from home.  Guess what!  She no longer stays with my parents, we all stay together now under one roof,,,our own house.

Yes!  Finally, we don't rent anymore.  Last year, April 2012, we started building a 6m x 7m house in Amadeo, right at the back of my parents house.  It's a one-bedroom house and it's not really finished yet.  But does it matter?  No, it doesn't (at least right now).  What truly matters to us is the fact that we are not spending P2500 monthly for the rent.  And that all of us, Dy (my hubby), and my three kids, live together.  .

We have so many plans for this abode.  By next month, Dy promised me that we'll have it rough-finished at least.  It's in preparation for the coming rainy season.  We don't want rainwater coming in through the hollow blocks (just like what we experienced last year, the house was always wet during storms).  

I should be posting pictures of our wonderful house but the pics are not available on my laptop right now.  I'll have it posted next time...