In my case, I'm not really after the career. Work is a must for me. If I don't work, we won't be able to sustain the needs of our family. (My husband's a security guard, so I really need to help him. You see, here in our country, guards are getting only the minimum wage. Lucky, in their agency, they're giving above minimum.)
Teachers have tons of work on days like these (nearing the closing of classes). I bring home most of my paper works for I won't be able to finish them with just an hour break at school. And because I feel so stressed out, I can't afford to hear much noise in the house. I get easily irritated hearing my children whether they're just having fun or they're already having a fight over simple things like toys or the dvd they would watch. After I yell at them, I'd feel so guilty but would not tell them so. I'd keep it to myself. Then I would go back to work. I feel guilty also on times that I wasn't able to put them to sleep. I would ask their tita Jen to stay with them til they're asleep. Most of the time, I'd visit them in their room and would give them pecks on the cheek so as to lessen the guilt I have inside.
This is the other side of motherhood. It's not all fun and exciting memories with the kids. Sometimes it's also heartbreaking.
see, i am still up though it's morning already... hmmm,work, work, work
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