Some Kind of a Sacrifice

        Tamarra's not around on weekdays because of school ( Sweet Little Child ).  Alyanna ( Bouncing Second Baby Girl ) stays with my mother-in-law and comes to our house once in a while.  She's with Nanay since she's just 6 months old.  That is because I got pregnant with Kohbe ( The Emperor of my Heart ) at that time.  I couldn't continue breastfeeding her because of the baby in my womb.  Since then, she never left Nanay.  We just let her for we lived across my in-laws house.  But now that we moved to this house, we began seeing the problem.  We can't let Alyanna stay with us for long.  She would stay for about three days then would ask daddy to bring her back to Nanay for she (Alyanna) misses her already.  We're getting used to the situation.  

        The other night, I felt different.  I arrived home around 9:30 without noisy kids to welcome me with their hugs and kisses.  Prior to that, I already received a text message from my sister-in-law telling that my baby boy forced himself to go with her when she fetched Alyanna.  I said it was fine.  But when I got home, I felt really empty.  The house was cold, my husband's out on duty, no one's home except his cousin who looks after the kids while we're out.  I realized parenting is really equivalent to sacrifice.  My husband and I work hard to earn a living, to give the needs of our children.  But because we have to work, we seldom see our kids.  We seldom spend some quality time with them.  Though, whenever we can, we really make sure no matter how short the time we can spend with them, they would very much enjoy our company.  I try to cook often, daddy would buy dvd's for the whole family to watch.  Once in a while, we also see to it that we go out with them: malling, picnicking, and doing other fun activities.  

        How I wish one day I could just stay home and just attend to their needs, prepare their food, make them ready for school and the likes.  A day when they don't need to stay with our parents because their own parents are available for them.